Sunday, December 25, 2016
Saturday, December 17, 2016
To live among fake people is very hard ...it is sometimes like fighting an everlasting war ,,,eternal enemies whom you can never accept in your life yet they are there all the time ...they are like your shadows which never leave you ,,,not only in the sun ,,, but shadows of darkness ,,,, shadows with bloody nature ,,,sharp teeth and long tongues ,,,vampires ,,, devils and monsters full of evil and menace ....their souls are full of venom ... they bodies are only illusions ,,,,they are the world's worst enemies ,,, those are the liars ,,, hypocrites and users ,,,
In my life I have seen all sorts of bad treatments covered with flowery faces and decorated tongues full of beautiful nice language of love , tenderness and creepy lies that can never be known not even to prophesiers ...
The problem is when you are surrounded by such people who show you love but in reality it is only an appearance that does not reveal a TRUE feeling ,,, it is an alias ,,, a misleading cover ... a false paint ,,, the worst thing is that those are your own people whom you know more than anyone else in the world you have been living ....
What will you do to stay among this situation ,,, if you leave them then you will stand all alone ,,,if you stay with them - especially if you love them and if you have a big heart - a heart of gold .... then your misery will never end ,,, it is a very bewildering complicated situation ...
Life is full of surprises ; this is because it is all in the hands of GOD – the Almighty Who looks for His creatures with love and mercy …. Never let them down …
Yesterday a very close old friend reminded me of how lazy I was in writing any posts for such a long time , not knowing nor legalizing that I have been through long term episodes of difficulties and hard times ….so I decided to write again …who knows , maybe one day after I pass away these posts will be of use to someone who could be going through the same experience ….
Believing in God means believing in miracles …
I DO BELIEVE IN MIRACLES because I KNOW GOD ….
Today I am going to keep whatever might light my way – in my heart – never tell a soul …because being a good innocent , decent , honest person with pure soul and gold heart , a true tongue which can never lie ….means you become a prey for all human beings of this age …
Today I promise myself to keep my private matters to myself , never share it with another person …this is because all my life I have so naïve – despite my intelligence , sharp thinking and smartness – this is because I am holding a heart of a newborn baby – without malice ; without hatred ; without jealousy ; without evil …..
ENOUGH of toxic people …Let me live the few years of my life in PEACE ….
I PRAY to the Almighty GOD that 2017 be my own year ….
Thursday, July 28, 2016
Are You A Survivor ???
Survivors are strong people ...in fact they are the strongest ....being a survivor makes you feel that you can conquer the whole world and any war that might face you ...
I , myself , am a survivor ....and what a survivor ! ....one that has been through all sorts of wars ,,, one who has been struggling for decades .... fighting against human wars... illness wars.... material wars,,,anything that hurts , changes white into black , smile into tears, happiness into sadness,,, life into death .....in short my life has been a series of misfortunes,,, miseries and accumulations of pain ....moreover, what hurts most is that all these toxic events are the results of the behavior and actions of my closest and nearest people ...those who are from my own blood and flesh !!!!
If I speak of the pain and miseries my own family have been putting me through all my life till this moment you will be so surprised and you might not even believe it ...
The only person who was fair and good to me was my beloved father
( My God bless his soul) ... he was the angel ,,, the light ... the candle that lit my heart and my life and the only sun that still gives me warmth ... strength and power.. of course after my strong belief and faith in the Almighty God who has been providing me with the power of will to overcome all the difficulties I have been through ....
If you want to be a SURVIVOR ...all you need is FAITH in God and an idol ... someone from whom you get some strength to carry on - survive ...
Now I am all alone after I have been used and abused by all ...after everyone gets what they want ,,,they all left me to fight my battle which they have drawn me to ....
I try to forget all the bad deeds they have done to me ... I can't ... I try to forgive them ,,,, I try ....BUT I have to be careful of the bites of the wolves who are waiting around me ...
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