Sunday, September 27, 2015


is century faces the worst terrorist era in history probably after the WWII ....bloodshed , slaughtering , murder , constant killing of innocent civilians of children , women and men every day ever since the extremists of the wahabi &  salafi movements were founded in Saudi Arabia at the beginning of this century ... these two movements have misinterpreted Islam principles and the Holy Qura'an words according to their own interests and sick thinking ; they have deviated God's words and the Hadiths of  Prophet Mohammed ... they have turned Islam which is a religion of love, mercy , peace and kindness into a religion of slaughtering , terror , murder , rape , brutality and barbarism ...
Their first organization was called Al-Qaida which was founded by the terrorist Bin Laden , a rich Saudi who was backed , supported and sponsored by the Saudi government , USA and the Zionists to stand up for Taliban in Afghanistan ,,, later on they expand their terror throughout the world ,,, 
In 2003 , the bloody USA invaded Iraq ,,so they have transported  Al-Qaida to grow in western Iraq ... Anbar province whose population are extreme sunnis and who have opposed the  new shia government ...most of the sunni families in Anbar welcome Al-Qaida they supported their work - some   families married their daughters to Al- Qaida members...they then started their terrorist crimes by bombing cars , kidnapping people and spreading violence and terror in most Iraqi cities - especially Baghdad .

ISIS , which is the worst and most savage group , then came over to slaughter and behead innocent people not only in Iraq but they expand their crimes internationally ,,,despite all this the support and aid of USA , Saudi government , Qatar , Turkey and UAE  have been going on and thus about a million innocent souls have been lost ...
The whole world knows and still not any action is taken till this moment 
I keep asking the same question again and again : 
" Why doesn't any country take action against Saudi Arabia  and its allies ?" 
I , myself , answer this question : " Because they want to eliminate Islam and the Arabs ." 
The Saudis are Zionists 
Israel is more merciful than Saudi Arabia 
and its allies ...
Because ISIS has never hurt one single Saudi nor an Israeli 

When shall we have PEACE ?
I wonder if we will ...
It seems that we are having a WWII


Thursday, September 24, 2015



To live  alone , one must be very reasonable , hard working , good at everything and most of all patient ... otherwise, there comes times when staying alone can drive you crazy ,,,
As for me living all alone for five years have taught me so many things ...

I am a person who loves reading which has helped me a lot in my solitary life ..
I write and search the web ,,,which of course have , also ,  helped me pass time and most of all I am a very patient person  who has endured so many difficulties in my previous life - all alone - though I was surrounded by  family , friends , acquaintances who rarely  helped me in  solving any of my problems ,,, in fact they were the reasons behind my problems ,,,,

I prefer to read a book , watch  certain TV programs  or write a poet /  a story  or an article rather than have people around me who spend most of the time gossiping ,,, talking about trivial matters or just sitting around against their own wills only because they have to .... and they call it at the end ' socializing '...

Time runs like a lightening or a thunder quickly  these days that we don't even feel or realize that years now seems like months ...months like days ... days like minutes ...

I love my family and my country  very much BUT I can not go back now for so many reasons ,, I have no place to go to ,,,it is not safe there and life has become so difficult -- I am , now , a lonely woman,,,a tired weary woman who has been suffering so much for the last decade  because of  her cheating husband and of family  abundance which filled me with pain and bitterness ... 
Living all alone for five years in a strange country - away from beloved ones who all left me to suffer without a hand that will tap on my shoulder or a word of sympathy that would give me moral support nor even   a word of encouragement ,,,all this has killed me inside out ,I was torn to pieces ,,my dignity and pride prevented me to stay in a place where no one said a word of truth and no one helped me to overcome my problem ...

Now , I look back at those years and think if I stayed there I might have had much more troubles and pain ,,,because being  there - no one cared for me at all 
I was and still am always backing them ,,, helping them and supporting  them whenever I can ,,,despite their ignorance , abundance and marginalization to me ..
I will always love them 
though I am far away from them ..but deep down in  my heart great wounds and bitterness of their treatment to me and leaving me face problems one after the other without raising a finger ...
Why did they all behave in this way ? 
I don't understand nor will I ever !

I keep thinking about those prisoners who live in solitary cells  and sometimes I remember stories  I have read or films  I have watched about such circumstances ..I remember Burt Lancaster acting in one of his great movies when he was imprisoned in a solitary cell and how he trained a swallow to pull a carriage which he made with  wooden teeth sticks...and of course many other true stories ... 
 Comparing  myself to a prisoner in a solitary cell ... I find myself much luckier and living  a better live than his/ her ...

Thursday, September 10, 2015

Life is Too Short

Life Is Too Short 
It Is Not Worth Anything 
Do Not be Jealous Nor Envious
Do Not Be a Hypocrite 
Have Attachment With  Those Whom You Love 
Your Family 
 Friends & Acquaintances 
Tell Them You Love Them
Before It Is Too Late 
Tomorrow  We Will Be  Just A Memory 
Forgive All Those Who Hurt You 
Smile & Do Not Take A Grudge
We Do NOT Know When  We  Will Pass Away 

WHY ???

WHY  ????

We all have,  sometimes,  moments of doubts and frustration about every small bit of details in our life ...even for trivial daily matters ...we keep asking the question that begins with :
WHY ??
Most of all the questions that arises is : 
( Why ME ?? ) 
It seems that we don't know nor realize that each and every single one of us in all this globe is destined to his / her own fate which has been written and decided by GOD even before our own birth ,,,, BUT if you are not a real believer you can never understand this sentence nor be aware of its importance unless you  go through certain experience which you find yourself indulged in despite your being far away from it ....
When pain , care and trouble come suddenly in our life , we think that God is punishing us for something bad we have done ,,, or that we deserve to have a sad or bad  life because we have previously sinned ,,, did n't obey God ,,,many ideas and thoughts come across our minds to justify the cause behind the troubles or problems we are facing ....but :
the truth is God loves us and therefore He wants us to be strong as He and only He knows what will happen to us after that ,,, 
If we read the stories of all prophets and messengers of God , we see that they all suffered and  had difficulties ,,,they passed through torture , oppression and unbelievable problems which gave them patience , tolerance and strength ....
We are human beings and surely our patience is far less than prophets and messengers of God ,,,yet we still can be patient and we can endure illness , suffering , oppression and hard times as long as we believe that the Almighty God is there for us and that He will never let us down ....
When I look back at my life , I still can't believe that I had been through all the hardships all alone and that I have passed all these problems and suffering and now I have become  stronger and that I am still OK ,,, nothing wrong except the painful bitter memories which were caused by the closest people and nearest ones to my heart and soul ...
I have learned a very difficult lesson  which made me realize that good , kind , pure , innocent , honest and decent woman can't live in this world because there are wild wolves all around ...  have learned that the more humane , humble and simple a person is the more people use him / her ....I have learned that goodness could be  a sin in a society where people have   vicious,  malicious and cruel hearts and souls ,,,,I have learned the hardest way - not the hard way that men - even the most educated are very selfish ,,, I have learned to stay away from people after being so good , so generous, so kind and unbelievably merciful , loving , caring and honest ... all I got in return was ungratefulness, deceit , cheating  and hurt ...
Now , after looking back at all this long - term experience of decades I feel so relieved that a burden has been lifted off my back or shall I say my life or the rest of my life ...
Do I have any regrets   ???
No , I have no regrets because it was an awakening to me ...
God loves me and I always say this after all the agony and pain , bitterness and illness , loneliness and abundance , ...
I have learned my lesson and let all those who hurt me live with a remorse that - I am sure -  is killing them slowly ...if not now then the day of judgment - Domesday will be soon wherein we will all be judged by the Almighty God ...
I wonder .... what will those people and those who have hurt others say to Him ???
Sometimes , living all alone by yourself save you the trouble of being used and abused ...

Carole Samaha - Wahshani Bladi VC / كارول سماحه - وحشاني بلادي

Tuesday, September 08, 2015

The Innocent Victims of War

The Innocent Victims of War

The tragic death & slaughtering of thousands of Iraqis ,

 Syrians , Afghans , Libyans & Yemenis … for a decade have

 been a blank to the whole world - it was only the photo of 

angel Alyan Kurdi may his soul rest in peace that have 

suddenly shocked the world … I , myself cried when I saw 

the photo but I have crying for a decade for all those innocent 

victims of babies ; children , young men& women , elderly

 people ,,,civilians who have nothing to do with politics ,

The media has played a great part this time to show the 

governments & politicians what it is like to be under the

 hammer of the west ‘s real policy …ISIS & all other terrorist 

organizations have been founded sponsored & supported by 

USA & its allies – the Saudis , Qataris , Turks & other 


Until this moment the USA is supporting violence ,,,,The 

Saudis & ISIS are slaughtering & bombing innocent civilians 




Whatever our nationality , religion, color & origin is ----we are

GOD created us and He gave us the right to live ,,,it is only

 HE who can take our souls ,,,
May all martyrs of the whole world RIP …
May the politicians’ conscious wake up …
May we all live in PEACE & LOVE …

Saturday, May 30, 2015

Running Away

Running Away 

When you face so many problems in your life and no one stands with you ,,, when you are left all alone struggling to get your peace of mind and serenity ,,when you realize that you have become an easy prey for all those around you and there is no way out of all your troubles BUT to RUN AWAY ..... 
How do you react ? 
Do you run away leaving all those hounds barking loudly ?
Do you stay and keep suffering and live day and night in torture ?
Do you just try to  erase all those around you and start a new life among them and treat all of them indifferently and coldly as if they do not exist ?
Very difficult questions - especially if you are a compassionate , kind  conscientious person who  has never hurt anyone not even
 an insect ....

It has been about five years since I left my country and settled in another due to many crucial personal problems ,,, I still remember every single detailed place at home and every single person whom I know whether family , acquaintances , friends , neighbours or just people I have met many times there ,,,,
 I long and yearn to those good time I had lived there ...
A person's country and home town is just like a mother ,,,it is not easy to forget or abandon ,,, leave and forget ,,, it is part of a person especially for those patriots who love their countries and I am one of them ,,,, 
However , as I have no place to go to there ,, no home ,,,no shelter I find myself bewildered , confused and uncertain whether to go back or stay here ...
Each day passes the decision becomes more difficult ,,, it is not because I am living here all alone by myself ; it is not that I feel lonely because I spend my time just the way I like : reading , writing , watching  my favourite programmes and movies on TV , searching the net , doing all the usual daily activities and sometimes going  for a walk , shopping or window shopping ...
Whenever the idea of death crosses my mind - I have a strong desire to go back home because I want to die among my siblings ,, in my own hometown and to be buried near my parents  ....
I believe  in God  and I know that we are all destined to our way of life ,,,,I have a strong belief that our fate is designed to us by Him and we can not change it at all ...
I wonder , though - will I be able to go back home ???
Will I stay here , die and buried  in another country ???
Who knows ??? 
No one knows what will happen tomorrow .....
I just keep praying to the Almighty God to let me die at home and be buried near my my parents ...

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