Thursday, July 28, 2016

Are You A Survivor

Are You A Survivor ???

Survivors are strong people ...in fact they are the strongest ....being a survivor makes you feel that you can conquer the whole world and any war that might face you ...
I , myself , am a survivor ....and what a survivor ! ....one that has been through all sorts of wars ,,, one who has been struggling for decades .... fighting against human wars... illness wars.... material wars,,,anything that hurts , changes white into black , smile into tears, happiness into sadness,,, life into death .....in short my life has been a series of  misfortunes,,, miseries and accumulations of pain ....moreover, what hurts most is that all these toxic events  are the results of the behavior and actions of my closest and nearest people ...those who are from my own  blood and flesh !!!!

If I speak of the pain and miseries my own family have been putting me through all my life till this moment you will be so surprised and  you might not even believe it ...

The only person who was fair and good to me was my beloved father
( My God bless his soul) ... he was the angel ,,, the light ... the candle that lit my heart and my life and the only sun that still gives me warmth ... strength and power.. of course after my strong belief and faith in the Almighty God who has been providing me with the power of will to overcome all the difficulties I have been through ....

If you want to be a SURVIVOR ...all you need is FAITH in God and an idol ... someone from whom you get some strength to carry on - survive ...

Now I am all alone after I have been used and abused by all ...after everyone gets what they want ,,,they all left me to fight my battle which they have drawn me to ....

I try to forget all the bad deeds they have done to me ... I can't ... I try to forgive them ,,,, I try ....BUT I have to be careful of the bites of the wolves who are waiting around me ...






Sunday, September 27, 2015

MOST TERRORIST CENTURIES

MOST TERRORIST CENTURIES 
is century faces the worst terrorist era in history probably after the WWII ....bloodshed , slaughtering , murder , constant killing of innocent civilians of children , women and men every day ever since the extremists of the wahabi &  salafi movements were founded in Saudi Arabia at the beginning of this century ... these two movements have misinterpreted Islam principles and the Holy Qura'an words according to their own interests and sick thinking ; they have deviated God's words and the Hadiths of  Prophet Mohammed ... they have turned Islam which is a religion of love, mercy , peace and kindness into a religion of slaughtering , terror , murder , rape , brutality and barbarism ...
Their first organization was called Al-Qaida which was founded by the terrorist Bin Laden , a rich Saudi who was backed , supported and sponsored by the Saudi government , USA and the Zionists to stand up for Taliban in Afghanistan ,,, later on they expand their terror throughout the world ,,, 
In 2003 , the bloody USA invaded Iraq ,,so they have transported  Al-Qaida to grow in western Iraq ... Anbar province whose population are extreme sunnis and who have opposed the  new shia government ...most of the sunni families in Anbar welcome Al-Qaida they supported their work - some   families married their daughters to Al- Qaida members...they then started their terrorist crimes by bombing cars , kidnapping people and spreading violence and terror in most Iraqi cities - especially Baghdad .

ISIS , which is the worst and most savage group , then came over to slaughter and behead innocent people not only in Iraq but they expand their crimes internationally ,,,despite all this the support and aid of USA , Saudi government , Qatar , Turkey and UAE  have been going on and thus about a million innocent souls have been lost ...
The whole world knows and still not any action is taken till this moment 
I keep asking the same question again and again : 
" Why doesn't any country take action against Saudi Arabia  and its allies ?" 
I , myself , answer this question : " Because they want to eliminate Islam and the Arabs ." 
The Saudis are Zionists 
Israel is more merciful than Saudi Arabia 
and its allies ...
Because ISIS has never hurt one single Saudi nor an Israeli 

When shall we have PEACE ?
I wonder if we will ...
It seems that we are having a WWII


     

Thursday, September 24, 2015

Alone

Alone 

To live  alone , one must be very reasonable , hard working , good at everything and most of all patient ... otherwise, there comes times when staying alone can drive you crazy ,,,
As for me living all alone for five years have taught me so many things ...

I am a person who loves reading which has helped me a lot in my solitary life ..
I write and search the web ,,,which of course have , also ,  helped me pass time and most of all I am a very patient person  who has endured so many difficulties in my previous life - all alone - though I was surrounded by  family , friends , acquaintances who rarely  helped me in  solving any of my problems ,,, in fact they were the reasons behind my problems ,,,,

I prefer to read a book , watch  certain TV programs  or write a poet /  a story  or an article rather than have people around me who spend most of the time gossiping ,,, talking about trivial matters or just sitting around against their own wills only because they have to .... and they call it at the end ' socializing '...

Time runs like a lightening or a thunder ...so quickly  these days that we don't even feel or realize that years now seems like months ...months like days ... days like minutes ...

I love my family and my country  very much BUT I can not go back now for so many reasons ,, I have no place to go to ,,,it is not safe there and life has become so difficult -- I am , now , a lonely woman,,,a tired weary woman who has been suffering so much for the last decade  because of  her cheating husband and of family  abundance which filled me with pain and bitterness ... 
Living all alone for five years in a strange country - away from beloved ones who all left me to suffer without a hand that will tap on my shoulder or a word of sympathy that would give me moral support nor even   a word of encouragement ,,,all this has killed me inside out ,I was torn to pieces ,,my dignity and pride prevented me to stay in a place where no one said a word of truth and no one helped me to overcome my problem ...

Now , I look back at those years and think if I stayed there I might have had much more troubles and pain ,,,because being  there - no one cared for me at all 
I was and still am always backing them ,,, helping them and supporting  them whenever I can ,,,despite their ignorance , abundance and marginalization to me ..
I will always love them 
though I am far away from them ..but deep down in  my heart great wounds and bitterness of their treatment to me and leaving me face problems one after the other without raising a finger ...
Why did they all behave in this way ? 
I don't understand nor will I ever !

I keep thinking about those prisoners who live in solitary cells  and sometimes I remember stories  I have read or films  I have watched about such circumstances ..I remember Burt Lancaster acting in one of his great movies when he was imprisoned in a solitary cell and how he trained a swallow to pull a carriage which he made with  wooden teeth sticks...and of course many other true stories ... 
 Comparing  myself to a prisoner in a solitary cell ... I find myself much luckier and living  a better live than his/ her ...


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